Shadowboxing

No time for a long post but I will say this: Today is payday and Ketchup's check is smaller then everyone but I figured it would be. Should be interesting. Ketchup is wearing himself thin when it comes to funds. First off, he wants a cell phone. This guy hasn't even touched our phone in the month and a half he's been here and only checked his e-mail like four times. What does he need a two hundred dollar phone and a fifty-five dollar a month plan for? How about the video game components he has promised to give us money for? I probably could have waited to get Call of Duty 4 but he offered to give us some money for the purchase along with a few other things. Of course not forgetting cigarettes, he also wants to buy an ounce of weed and he still needs to give us funds towards bills and groceries. Of all the things on his shopping list, what do you suppose will suffer because he can't cover it all?

By the way, last night the hubby and I proved we do actually fight. It was the first time alone in four days so I took the opportunity to speak up about all the things I had held my tongue over, especially my need to be acknowledged in this whole situation. His main issue with our current living arrangement is the lack of "private time" and I needed him to know it was much more then that for me. Unintentionally he turned it around on me, basically saying it was my fault that Ketchup didn't get out more. Apparently I had seemed apprehensive about the idea of the hubby spending a few of the precious hours he had off during his weekend driving Ketchup around the old neighborhood and what not while I sit home excluded.

Of course he didn't mean to offend me, but that really didn't stop it from happening, and to make things worse, boys always expect you to just get over things. I don't. I didn't. I cried. He panicked. I let him know that this is why it's hard to come to him with things. I don't have anyone else, I need him and sometimes that means I just need him to let me be upset without making me feel worse for being upset in the first place. He gets it but in the heat of the moment it's easily forgotten.

Despite this, or because of this, it shows the strength of our relationship. We fought and cried and are no worse for the wear. Perhaps more enlightened then before but it's over. We got it out and we're better for it.

Too bad it doesn't fix our problems with Ketchup though, heh.