Moms, Mondays and Migraines

Oh, where do I start? In some ways there has been a shift, in others... ugh.

Let's start with my mom. I wrote my letter. My declaration of independence. I said I couldn't do it anymore. I said I couldn't keep up the appearances anymore. I said I wanted better, that I wanted more. I had the hubby read it. He said it was perfect. Thursday night, after four or five drinks, I finally hit the send button.

Monday morning, I had a response. She's sorry. She gets it. She wants better too. She's not going to hassle me about grandma anymore. Tuesday I had another email from her, reinforcing it. I called her yesterday because I actually had some time home alone and we talked for an hour, I can't remember the last time that happened. We didn't even talk about the letter, we talked about everything. She listened, engaged, I felt her trying. She's even going to come to the bar one of these Mondays. I can't believe it. We deserve this, it's just surreal.

While that part of life seems to be on the upswing, Ketchup on the other hand, is not doing much for my peace of mind. A day after "I'm just so broke" he defies logic and starts spending money like he has it to waste. Instead of re-upping his phone with the ten dollar a month plan, he goes to Cricket and spends five times that much for bullshit he doesn't need. Now the phone is a constant extension of his hand, he's constantly on it either texting or playing around on MySpace. Even with this fancy new phone and unlimited everything, he can't let us know when his plans change or when we can expect him back home. Nifty. Another smart way to save money, he had quit smoking, so of course he had to go buy a couple packs. For reference, that's not quitting. The hubby told him to get out of the house more, so he decides to spend the day at the bar, and this was after blowing off going to church with the girl he's trying to hook up with, with the excuse of being too tired. Nice. Then the bastard gets irate at work because a guy who started after him was getting off before him. It was on the schedule that way, the hubby warned him, it happens to everyone and still he throws a hissy fit. Ugh.

At least Monday night was good, it was actually the night of Ketchup's hissy fit so he wasn't there and one of the gals (that I'm yet to name here) gossiped about him. Always fun. People are getting so comfortable with the camera that when I go through the pictures later, I don't know who took half of them. It's been a good experiment for me, letting myself be so photographed, but I think I'm doing well with it. Hell, some of the pictures are on the internet, I think that shows a pretty good increase in my confidence.

Speaking of my pictures on the internet, the hits on my other blog have doubled in the last couple weeks. More and more people know about it and love it. Yay me!

We upgraded our internet yesterday and it's been pretty nice. They sent us a free modem so we get to send back the one that we have been renting (five bucks a month for over a year now, could have bought one for cheaper then that dangit.)

Since I seem to have gotten quite boring and really can't seem to keep my train of thought with this headache brewing (maybe it's that I haven't eaten yet) I am going to go ahead and wrap this post up, Ketchup is starting to snore on the couch and it's getting distracting anyway. Later folks.