Patience Is A Virtue

Of course we're alive, it was them we had doubts about. So the hubby and Tall texted back and forth to each other yesterday. Pointless bullshit that had nothing to do with anything. My hubby tried to mention that it had been five days since the random text telling us he was going to bed. The point was lost on Tall. He just kept up with the pointless stuff, even asked where we got our cats fixed. Then he asked when we were going to come over and chill.

Isn't it logical to think that we might not want to come and hang out with them, not only for all the reasons I have stated before (we're the type of people who need to be invited, they always have their other friends over and technically I don't even know exactly where they live,) but also why would we want to go over to their place if they no longer want to come to ours?

My hubby said that if it were just them, without the female influence, that they would probably just forget the whole situation and move on. I asked how could we move on like nothing has changed when it has changed. Tall and Sassy pretty clearly want very little to do with us anymore. Offending us doesn't matter to them, sometimes now I wonder if they even notice. How do you move forward with them after that? He didn't have an answer but I have the feeling I'm wrong for even asking.

I think I'm the complication. I'm the one making the situation more difficult by being hurt, by being offended, by caring. I'm starting to sound like a broken record and I don't know what to do about it. Be miserable and lonely? Condemn my husband to the same? Wait patiently for how ever long it takes for our friends remember that we are here and then what? Wait to be taken advantage of again?

I try to believe in Karma. The belief that doing good deeds and being a good person will come back to you. Over the past several years that belief has been tested. With all of the people we have helped out in various different ways, I'm still waiting for a little good to come back my way. Is that selfish? Do I even have to ask if it's selfish?

I have to be done with this, at least for now. I am just talking myself in circles and not accomplishing anything but making myself feel bad. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens because in the meantime, this just isn't helping. Thanks for listening though, I appreciate it.